It's almost impossible not to ponder and await the future when you're pregnant. That future-focused mindset is somewhat embedded into the whole experience - the constantly approaching due date and growing anticipation of meeting your child. I'm not immune to these natural inclinations. Every night that I fall asleep I wonder will tonight be the night? Is that a contraction or just him kicking and moving around my tiny bladder? :)
If it wasn't clear before, it's certainly clear now - I do not know the future. I do not know when Norman will arrive. I do not know if there will be complications. I do not know if he'll have hair, or birthmarks, or jaundice, or how much he'll weigh.
Instead, I want to focus on what I do know.
I know that I'm still pregnant.
I know that these finals days are a sweet time of excitement and joy.
I know every full night of sleep is a gift.
I know Mr. Fleece loves me.
I know we have the support and prayers of many.
Most importantly, I believe there's a holy personal God who knows and cares for me and is sustaining me through this process and enormous life change.
For by him all things were created, in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or dominions or rulers or authorities - all things were created through him and for him. And he is before all things, and in him all things hold together. - Colossians 1:16-17.
Enjoying the little things as I await this little one,
- SJW
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