On October 12, 2020 we welcomed Ellen Doreen & Calvin Creighton into the world and officially became a family of five and parents to twins!
It's common for these early days to feel like a blur so I wanted to pause and capture some of this infamous newborn stage. The melt-my-heart cuteness while tearing-my-hair out crying stage. The frequent I-don't-know-what-I'm-doing guessing game. Navigating the twin ping-pong fussiness and adjusting to their bird-like squawks. Where any out-of-the-house activity feels like an accomplishment and parents mirror children with frequent naps and early bedtimes. The days of we bought 15 pacifiers but can't find a single one. Days of bottle-washing nonsense, breast milk everywhere, night lights, and sound machines.
Soak it up they say. For even though the days feel long, the years fly by. They grow so fast. They'll never be this little again. And I agree - all of that is true. So while I'm soaking up another burp cloth of milky spit up, I'll also soak in the baby yawns, grumpy faces, drowsy eyes, tiny fingers, and floppy heads. I'll soak up their innocence, their wonder, their soft skin, and their amazing little bodies.
Some days it will feel like I'm hanging on by a thread. Some days I'll want to scream and cry right along. Some days I'll think it's too much and withdraw, becoming angry and overwhelmed. I can already anticipate the daily battle against frustration, exhaustion, and monotony. But no matter the stress of sleep schedules, awake windows, cluster feeds, nap lengths, formula supplementation, nighttime intermissions, pumping rounds and more, I'm their mom and they're my babies. And we'll get through these early years together.
Drenched in love,
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